Title: Fix You
Author: Froxyn
Rating: FRM (light)
Pairing: Buffy/Giles
Timeline: S5, no Riley,
no Glory.
Synopsis: A month after
her mother’s death, Buffy realizes that the one person she needs is the one
person she sent away.
Author’s Note: Album fic. Song and lyrics can be found here.
She had put their budding
relationship on hold when her mother fell ill.
And then, when Joyce had died, Buffy told him that she couldn’t do
this…their relationship…because she loved him too much. But tonight, just a few hours ago, she had
called him…and he had dropped everything to go to her, no questions asked.
And now he sat next to her, his
body turned towards hers as she spoke hurriedly.
“I should let you go, because
you deserve to be happy. But…I
can’t…because I love you…”
“Buffy…” He whispered, raising his hand to wipe the
tears from her face. “You make me
happy. I wish I could make you
understand.”
“I wanted Mom to not be in pain. I guess I got what I wanted, huh?” She sniffled and lowered her eyes.
“Oh, love.” He pulled her into his arms as she broke
down again. “What I would give to fix
this for you.”
He shifted into a more
comfortable position, pulling her onto his lap as she curled against his
chest. He lovingly rubbed her back as
he placed a tender kiss on the top of her head.
“How long has it been since
you’ve had a full night’s sleep?”
She shrugged her shoulders and
he sighed.
“Where’s Dawn?”
“At Janice’s house.” She mumbled into the front of his
shirt. “Make this go away.”
He closed his eyes, the pain in
her voice tearing into his heart. He
didn’t have to ask what she was talking about.
She wanted the last year to start over…she wanted Dawn to just be her
sister, she wanted her mother to be alive and healthy.
“I love you.” She whispered on a ragged breath. “I’m sorry I hurt you…I’m sorry I pushed you
away.”
“Shh. It’s okay. I understood
then…and I understand now.” He
tightened his arms around her and swallowed the lump in his throat. “And I love you. I love you so very much, Buffy.”
“Make this go away.” She repeated. “Just for a little while.
Please…”
He was fairly certain what she
was asking from him. But, he wasn’t
going to go on his instincts this time…not when she was this vulnerable.
“What do you need from me,
darling?” He whispered.
She hesitated for only a second
and then lifted her head. She looked
into his eyes and answered in a whisper of her own.
“I need you to love me.” She swallowed and bit her lip. “I…will you come upstairs with me?”
He gave her a slow nod and
brushed his thumb through the wet path on her cheek. “Only if you promise me that if you change your mind, you’ll tell
me.”
“I promise.” She whispered, leaning forward to kiss
him.
Their kiss was slow and full of
love for one another. He slid his left
arm under her knees and leaned forward to stand. She refused to relinquish his lips as he carried her up the
stairs to her bedroom.
* * *
Giles opened his eyes and
furrowed his brow, momentarily confused.
When he felt a warm body snuggle closer to him, his confusion
faded. He remembered where he was, who
he was with…what they had done.
He took a deep breath and
exhaled slowly. He turned his head to
the left and squinted as he looked at the alarm clock. The red glowing digits told him that it was
precisely 3:47 in the morning.
“Are you trying to figure out a
way to get out of bed without me knowing?”
He chuckled softly and shook his
head. “Well, that would be futile now,
wouldn’t it?”
“Yeah.” She whispered softly and draped her arm over
him as she dropped a soft kiss onto his chest.
“Are you okay?”
He gently ran his fingers
through her hair and sighed softly.
“I’m fairly certain that was my line.”
“I wasn’t the one who panicked a
little when they woke up.” She
countered, offering him a small smile as his eyes darted to hers. “It’s okay…”
He licked his lips and stared
into her eyes. “Please don’t ask me to
leave again.”
“Giles…”
“I know you’re hurting. I know you’re scared. And…I know that I can’t make everything
right again, but…I want to try. I want
to be here for you when…”
She cut him off with a
kiss. As she shifted and felt his
erection begin to reappear, she ended the kiss and took a deep breath.
“There are some things you can’t
fix. But…you can fix me.”
A smile tugged at the corner of
his mouth. “Are you asking me to stay?”
“Yeah.” She gently ran her fingers through the hair
on his chest. “The one thing that Mom
wanted was for her daughters to be happy.
And I can’t help Dawn be happy if I’m not.”
He slid his right hand to the
small of her back. “What do you mean?”
“You make me happy, Giles.” She sighed as she laid back down beside of
him, her head resting on his shoulder.
“I miss her so much.”
“I know, love.”
“She loved you, you know.”
“Pardon?” He looked at her, his eyes wide.
“Not like that.” She laughed softly, allowing her hand to
glide down his stomach. “She told me…a couple
of days before she died…she said that she was happy for us. And that she thought you were good for
me…and that she would be proud to have you as her…”
He raised an eyebrow as she cut
her sentence short. “Have me as her
what?”
“Um…”
He smiled as he carefully rolled
her onto her back and pushed the sheet from her body. “I asked her, Buffy.”
“Asked her what?” She whispered, inhaling sharply as his
fingers circled her nipple.
“For her blessing.” He watched her face for her reaction,
smiling as she worked through the emotions and then settled on a smile.
As he lowered his mouth to hers,
she felt the first piece of her broken heart snap back into place. It might take a while, but she was sure that
if anyone could fix her, it was Rupert Giles.
~ End