Title: Hope for Camelot
Author: Froxyn
Rating: FRM
Pairing:
Uther/Morgana
Timeline: S1, A Remedy to Cure All Ills
Synopsis: Uther’s been distant, Morgana gives him an
explanation. How will Uther respond?
Author’s
Notes: Antennapedia asked for
Uther/Morgana. I asked for a
prompt. The prompt was: “Ep tag for "A Remedy to Cure All Ills". Uther
has been cured by Merlin, and Morgana is just as relieved by this as Uther was when
she was cured.” This is my response to
that prompt. Special thanks to fairygothmum for beta work on
this one!
Morgana stood in the
doorway, watching her King as he stared out the window. He seemed deep in thought, a gloved hand
resting on the wooden window frame and his brow furrowed as he gazed out over
his kingdom.
He hadn’t said much
to her since Gaius and Merlin had cured him of his affliction. She had caught a hard stare from him once,
but he had quickly dropped his gaze when her eyes met his. Though she couldn’t think of anything that
she had done, she wondered if he was angry with her.
“How are you feeling,
my Lord?”
Uther jumped
slightly, unaware that he was no longer alone.
He inhaled deeply and then answered without turning to face her. “Better.”
“The lethargy has
eased?” She questioned softly, stepping
into the room.
“It has.” He replied, continuing to stare out the
window.
Morgana moved to his
side, looking across the land to try to catch a glimpse of whatever had Uther’s
attention. She felt him tense, heard the
soft creak of leather against wood as his fingers tightened on the frame.
“I was worried. I thought I...we were going to lose
you.” Morgana looked up at him, her brow
furrowing as she watched his eyes darken a shade. “Uther?”
“You were
worried?” Uther asked, his jaw clenching
and releasing as Morgana replied with a whispered ‘yes’. “And yet, I woke alone.”
“You weren’t – ”
Uther turned his eyes
towards her and shook his head. “The
court physician and his bumbling apprentice do not count in this instance.”
“Uther...”
“Rarely did I leave
your side while you were ill.” Uther
stated in a low voice tinged with anger.
“I held your hand, told you the stories your father would never have
wanted you to hear, stroked your hair, begged you not to leave. And when you woke, I didn’t think I could
have felt more relieved than I did.”
Morgan opened her mouth
and then closed it when he continued, his anger being replaced by pain and, if
she wasn’t mistaken, fear.
“I woke alone...not
even my son stood at my bedside. Am I
that hated, that neither my son nor...you...would stay with me as I lay dying?”
“Arthur was looking
for Edwin. I’ve never seen him in such a
state of panic.”
“Edwin caused the
illness.” Uther replied, his eyes
flashing with a brief spike of rage.
“We didn’t know. Not until later.” Morgana sighed as she hesitantly lifted her
hand and placed it on his forearm. “I
didn’t leave, Uther. Do you honestly
think that I felt no relief when they told us you had been cured? Gaius and Merlin said that I couldn’t be
there...that I could have a relapse if the infection couldn’t be contained.”
He looked down at her
hand, her slender fingers tenderly wrapped around his arm. He licked his dry lips and then gave a nearly
imperceptible nod as a request for her to continue. A small smile pulled at the corner of
Morgana’s mouth. It may have been a
barely noticeable gesture, but she knew him...Uther Pendragon...and she knew
what each of his slightest movements meant.
This one meant that
he was listening...wanting to believe.
“I held your hand,
bathed your brow with the coolest water Gwen could provide. Your fever was so high, my Lord. I was so frightened that a cure wouldn’t be
found for you.” She trembled slightly as
he placed a gloved hand over hers, his thumb rubbing small circles against her
skin. “I didn’t leave your side,
Uther. Not until they made me...and I
fought them over that.”
They were both quiet
for a few moments, Morgana’s fingers tightening on his arm as he continued to
stroke her hand. The sound of him softly
clearing his throat finally broke the silence.
“Morgana...”
“I didn’t mean for
you to think that I didn’t care.” She
spoke hurriedly, her eyes glistening as their gazes met again. “I do, Uther.
More than I think you could ever possibly know.”
Uther’s back
straightened slightly, his thumb stopped its movement. He raised an eyebrow as Morgana released his
arm and took two steps back.
“Morgana.” He breathed, stepping towards her and
stopping when she shook her head. “I...”
She interrupted him
quickly, her eyes brimming with unshed tears.
“I’ll leave you to rest now. I
know that you’re still...”
Uther’s features
softened, surprise and concern washing over him as he watched a single tear
roll down her cheek. “Morgana?”
She wiped the tear
away with her fingers and offered him a tender smile. “It’s nothing, Sire. It’s just been an emotional day.”
“Dine with me this
evening.”
Morgana paused. It wasn’t a question, nor was it spoken in
the authoritative tone that he used so often.
It was simply a request.
“You should rest, my
Lord.”
Uther smiled...a
smile that was really no more than a quirk of his lips. But it was a smile nonetheless.
“I’m certain that
I’ll be forced to have dinner here.” He
stated, sweeping his arm out in a gesture to the room.
“Forced?” Morgana asked curiously.
“Mm. The court physician can be
rather...persuasive...when the need arises.”
He took a deep breath and another step towards her. “I’d rather not be forced to dine alone in my
chambers.”
“Arthur – ”
“Would much rather
practice his swordsmanship than to dine with his father, I’m sure.” Uther’s slight smile faded as a thought
occurred to him. “Of course, you might
very well rather do other things than dine with me as well. Forgive me, Morgana, I did not mean to imply
you had nothing worthwhile to...”
“I enjoy dining with
you, Uther.” Morgana gently
interrupted. “I just thought that Arthur
might like to spend some time with you tonight.”
Uther chuckled
softly, rubbing the side of his neck with a gloved hand. “Arthur is at that age...you were at that age
a few years ago...”
“When I was too busy
with my friends?” Morgana asked, her own
amusement showing in her eyes as he nodded.
“I’m past that age now, Uther.”
He exhaled softly and
gazed intently into her eyes. “For that,
I’m eternally grateful.”
Morgana fought to
control her tremble as she returned his gaze.
With a gentle nod, she accepted his proposal for dinner.
“You should rest, my
Lord.”
Before anything else
could be said, she turned and left the room, closing the heavy door behind
her. He stood where he was, eyes staring
at the wooden door...wondering if he had actually seen the desire smouldering
in her green eyes or if it was merely his imagination playing tricks on him
once more.
* * *
Uther paced in his
chambers.
He had waved the servant
away after the food had been laid out on the table. He had lit the candles, blew them out after
thinking that Morgana might find it absurd, and then relit them after realizing
he could blame it on the fact that there was no other form of lighting. He had traded the maroon tunic for a dark
blue version…remembering the smile Morgana had given him the first time he had
worn it.
And then he began to
pace.
He didn’t know for
how long he had been pacing, but the candles had not lost much of their length. He stared at the mass quantities of food on
the table and sighed heavily. It would
be cold soon…
Just as he had nearly
convinced himself that she would not be joining him after all, a light knock on
his chamber doors startled him. He
brushed his left hand down the front of his tunic and cleared his throat.
“Enter.”
The door swung open
and she hesitantly entered the room, almost as if she hadn’t been invited. Her hesitancy nearly made him smile. To be honest, he would’ve smiled…had his breath
not been taken away by her beauty.
“Good evening, my
Lord.” Morgana stated, executing a
perfect royal curtsey before meeting his eyes.
“Good evening,
Morgana.” He quickly made his way to the
door, pushing it closed before gesturing towards the table laden with meats,
cheeses, and breads. “Please…”
She tilted her head
slightly, smiling when she failed to see weariness in his green eyes. “You were able to rest.”
For the second time
today, he smiled in her presence. “Yes,
and you?”
Her first instinct was
to laugh and to tell him about how the last few hours had been spent with Gwen
telling her that her hair looked beautiful and then questioning as to why she
was worried so…after all, it was only Uther.
And Morgana had had dinner with Uther more times than not since her
arrival in Camelot.
Instead, she merely
nodded and gave him a gentle smile.
“After I realized that you are truly alright, yes.”
“Arthur has a few
years left before he is King.” Uther
chuckled softly as he poured the wine into Morgana’s goblet. “You…look rather remarkable this evening,
Morgana.”
Morgana could feel
the heat in her skin, but hoped that he wouldn’t notice. “As do you, Sire. It’s nice to see you in something other than
the reds of the Pendragon.”
Uther raised an eyebrow
as he filled his own goblet, but said nothing.
Morgana closed her eyes briefly, wishing she could take that last
statement back. Uther had always been
proud of his heritage and the color that his heritage had held for so many
years.
“I didn’t mean – ”
Uther lifted his
right hand and gave her a gentle wave.
“No need for explanations. I’m
confident that I understand your meaning.”
And that was when she
noticed.
There were no gloves
tonight. He was smiling, wearing the
blue she loved so dearly, and his hands were bare. She was so caught up in her thoughts that she
didn’t hear him say her name the first time…or the second. She met his eyes only when she felt his gaze bearing
down on her.
Concern shone in his
eyes. “Is everything alright, Morgana?”
“I’m sorry you were
alone.” She whispered, her fingers
curling around the stem of the goblet.
He regarded her for a
moment and then smiled, lifting his goblet and glancing pointedly at hers. She caught his meaning quickly and lifted
hers as well…and then waited. He leaned
forward, his smile reaching his eyes.
“I’m not alone
now.” He sat back and took a sip of his
wine, his eyes sparkling in the candlelight.
He waited until she had sipped from her own goblet before he placed his
on the table and reached for the basket of fresh bread. “Tell me about your day, Morgana.”
Morgana shook her
head and laughed. “I’m sure you know all
about my day, Sire.”
“I know that you are
not nearly as rested as you’d have me to believe.” Uther countered as his long fingers removed
the crust from a slice of the bread.
“And please...no titles tonight.”
“As you wish.” Morgana replied with a broad smile.
Uther chewed a piece
of the soft bread that was underneath the crusty shell and returned her
smile. “I have an idea that you and Gwen
got into some sort of mischief. You
normally do.”
She laughed and cut a
piece of cheese from a wedge on the platter.
“No mischief. Just me being
difficult.”
Amusement brightened
Uther’s eyes. “Surely not.”
Morgana was tempted
to throw the cheese at him as she laughed again. She would have had it been Arthur, but it
wasn’t. It was Uther...the man who could
hold her heart if he so chose.
So instead, she ate
the cheese...and then set about telling him of her day since she had left his
chambers earlier. He listened carefully,
laughing at the appropriate times and surprising her with his teasing tone.
She wasn’t sure what
surprised her most, Uther’s relaxed state or her own. As she watched him refill her goblet, she
realized that what had truly surprised her most was the fact that they were
both relaxed...in one another’s presence.
She couldn’t remember
the last time they had been alone...and relaxed. But she was determined to make the most of it. Who knew when the situation would arise once
more?
* * *
“I should go.” Morgana stated with a sigh as she looked out
at the full moon.
Uther stood to the
side, leaning against the stone wall...watching her watch nothing. “You could stay.”
“It’s late. Very late.”
She whispered as she shivered from a sudden chill. “The castle sleeps.”
“But we do not.” He offered, pushing from the wall when she
turned to look at him. “And I would very
much like you to stay for a while longer.”
He didn’t bother
trying to hide the desire in his eyes, there was no point now. That point had gone when she had stood up
earlier, the wine affecting her balance and causing her to fall onto his lap
while he still sat in his chair. His
arms had not hesitated in moving around her...and her breath had been so warm,
so sweet from the wine. And neither of
them had stopped him when he leaned into her and brushed his lips across hers.
“Uther...”
“Come to me.” He said, extending his hand to her.
She took it with no
further urging and allowed him to pull her closer to him...away from the
window. She didn’t need to ask why. Though it was dark, the moon was full and
bright...bright enough that even without the candles, the chambers would’ve
been bathed in moonlight. And the people
of Camelot had a habit of watching the castle gates close on nights such as
these. There was the chance that they
would be seen and that would be improper.
Not that what she was feeling now was at all proper.
She gasped as he
gently turned her and pressed her back against the wall. His eyes darted to her lips before he stared
into her eyes.
“If this is truly not
what you want, then say so now.” His
fingers glided over her smooth cheek and down the side of her neck. “But your desire burns bright in your
eyes...smoulders under your skin. Allow
me to ease your ache, Morgana.”
She swallowed with
difficulty, lifting her hand to his chest and feeling his heart pound under her
touch. “And what of your ache, my Lord?”
A growl rumbled in
his chest as he covered her mouth with his.
As she responded to the kiss, returning it with as much passion as he
was giving, he manuevered her towards the four-poster bed.
She was aware of him
pulling her from the wall. She was dimly
aware of the fact that they were moving across the room, though the sensation
of his tongue stroking hers was taking precedence at the moment.
It was only when she
felt the backs of her legs hit the thick mattress on his bed that she tore her
mouth from the kiss and stared into his eyes.
She lifted a trembling hand and touched her fingers to her swollen and
tingling lips.
“Uther...we
shouldn’t.”
“Stay with me. Just for a while longer.” Uther whispered, sliding his hands down to
her hips. “We need not take this any
further tonight. I’ll not force you,
Morgana.”
She nodded slowly,
allowing him to lay her down across the mattress. He removed her shoes before pulling his boots
off and lowering his body next to hers.
He felt her tense as
he draped his arm over her. He looked at
her curiously and asked the question that he was sure there would be no correct
answer for.
“Have you never
rested in a man’s arms...in his bed?”
“Never my
King’s.” She answered, willing herself
to relax...knowing that Uther may be capable of many things, but physically
hurting her was not one of them.
He was quiet for a
moment and continued only when she moved closer to him, resting her cheek
against his chest. He placed a kiss on
the top her head and slid his hand to her lower back.
“Am I only your
King?”
“I don’t think you
have ever been only my King.” She
mumbled into the soft fabric of his tunic.
He rolled onto his
back, curling his arm around her as her lips found his chin. He closed his eyes when her hands began to
explore his torso, his hand pressing flat against her back.
“Morgana...”
“Yes, my Lord?” She responded huskily, gliding her lips along
his jaw.
The husky tone of her
voice made him tremble lightly, causing her to lift her head and look down at
him curiously. As his eyes opened, his
passion for her shining in his darkened irises, she placed her hand on his
chest. He trembled again.
“Uther?”
His brow furrowed at
the concern he could hear in her voice as well as see in her eyes. “Have you never felt a man tremble from your
touch?”
When she shook her
head, he smiled and ran his fingers through her long, dark hair. “This is no cause for alarm. I should ask again...have you lain with a man
in passion?”
“No.” She replied, her eyes darting to his Adam’s
apple as he swallowed hard. “There was
one time when I came close...but you threatened to have his head.”
Uther stared at
her. “You were but sixteen then. There have been no others?”
“None who were brave
enough to face the King. I made a
promise that I would not give myself to someone if he could not stand before
you.”
“Why would you make
such a promise? And to whom?” Uther asked, intrigued by her statement.
“Because if a man
couldn’t gain your respect, how could
I give him mine?” She leaned down and
placed a tender kiss on his lips before answering the second part of his
question. “And the promise was to
myself.”
When his furrowed
brow smoothed, she smiled and traced the scar on his forehead with her
fingertip. “Would you stand before
yourself right now, Uther Pendragon?”
“I would.” He breathed, aching to feel her lips on his
skin once more.
“Only to have me in
your bed?”
When he hesitated in
his answer, she pushed herself up and exhaled deeply. “I apologize, my Lord. That was not an appropriate question.”
Uther sat up as well,
shifting uncomfortably as he silently willed his arousal to ease. “It was a question that you should have
asked...even if you were asking your King.”
Morgana lowered her
eyes from his and carefully moved from his bed, using her hands to smooth the
wrinkles from her blue gown. “I should
go, Sire.”
As she turned and
hastily made her way to the door, Uther clambered out of bed and ran after
her. “Morgana...”
She stopped, but
didn’t turn towards him.
“The answer is
no.” He took a deep breath and closed
the gap between them as she finally turned to face him. “I would much prefer more than what a night
with you in my bed would give me.”
“Uther?”
He swallowed thickly
and rubbed the side of his neck with his hand.
“I’ve never been particularly good with words of the heart. In fact, Igraine laughed at me more than once
for my inability to simply say ‘I love you’.”
Morgana’s eyes
widened. Uther rarely mentioned his
wife...and she couldn’t remember a time when he had mentioned her with a smile on his face.
“The truth of the
matter is that I had only ever loved...truly
loved...one person until I sat by your bed, your hand held in mine, praying
that I’d have the chance to tell you what you mean to me.”
“Oh...” She gasped as he lifted his hand to the side
of her face.
“I have that chance
now, yes?”
She nodded
wordlessly, tears forming in her eyes as his thumb stroked her cheek.
“Everything,
Morgana. You mean everything to me.”
From anyone else, she
would have expected more. She would have
expected long, flowing declarations of love and promises of a long and happy
future together. But, Uther Pendragon
was not ‘anyone else’...and his simple words were more heartfelt than any
declaration he could have given her.
And then she moved
back into his embrace, wrapping her arms around his waist and resting her cheek
against his chest.
“Edwin was wrong.”
Uther looked down at
her, his green eyes questioning her as she raised her eyes to his.
“Arthur said that
Edwin proclaimed to have a remedy to cure all ills.” She shook her head as Uther gave her a gentle
nod. “He was wrong. The real remedy? You’ve just given that to me.”
She leaned up on her
tiptoes and captured his mouth in a loving kiss. She pulled away before it spiralled out of
control again, smiling as she stepped out of his embrace and reached for the
door.
“If this is true, if
what we both feel is honest...I don’t want to hide in the shadows.”
“Nor do I.” Uther stated softly, glancing at the door as
she opened it. “Must you leave tonight?”
“It’s for the
best.” She replied, reluctance heavy in
her words as she stepped into the hallway.
He breathed a heavy
sigh as he stood in the doorway, glancing first to his left then to his right
only to find that they were alone. “Very
well.”
“Goodnight, my
Lord.” She whispered before turning to
walk down the hall that led to her chambers.
Her motion was stopped,
however, when Uther wrapped his hand around her wrist and turned her back
around to face him. She had no time to
question him before his mouth covered hers and his tongue nudged its way
between her lips. The kiss was hungry,
full of the promises that he hadn’t been able to speak, and far too short for
Morgana’s liking.
His fingers trailed
down her cheek as he ended the kiss and smiled down at her. “Goodnight, my love.”
And with that, he
turned and walked back into his chambers...softly closing the door behind
him. She stood there for a moment,
staring at the door in wonder. And then,
with a smile on her face, she turned and made her way down the hall...oblivious
to the two shadows lurking on the other side of the archway at the end of the
hall.
Arthur peered down
the hall, his eyes wide with surprise.
“Is it safe now?”
Arthur rolled his
eyes and stepped into the hallway. “Shut
up, Merlin.”
Merlin followed him,
keeping his voice to a whisper. “That
was Uther and Morgana!”
Arthur stopped and
stared at his servant. “I’m not blind.”
“But...did you know?”
Arthur shook his
head, glancing at his father’s door before grabbing Merlin’s arm and dragging
him back into the shadows just as the door opened and Uther stepped into the
hallway, a pair of Morgana’s shoes in his hand.
Arthur was sure that
he heard his father humming as he strode with purpose down the hall. He couldn’t remember the last time he had
actually heard his father hum. And
that’s when it occurred to him that for the first time in many years, his
father was happy.
Truly happy.
Arthur smiled as he
watched his father turn the corner.
“Morgana might very well be the best thing that has entered Father’s
life since my mother.”
Merlin shook his
head, following Arthur down the hall.
One day he’d tell Arthur that he believed that Arthur himself was the
best thing that had entered Uther’s life.
But not tonight...he was tired.
It had been a long day.
And judging from the
display they had just witnessed, tomorrow might be just as long. Morgana would probably hate it, but a formal
announcement would need to be made concerning the King’s change in relationship
status. It was tradition...and Uther was
definitely traditional.
He smiled to himself
while Arthur continued mumbling as they walked through the halls.
Maybe Morgana would
eventually even be able to change Uther’s mind when it came to magick. Uther was stubborn...but so was Morgana.
His groan was stifled
as Arthur slammed him against the wall and slapped his hand over his
mouth. His eyes widened as he followed
Arthur’s line of vision.
Morgana’s shoes were
on the floor, obviously having just been dropped from Uther’s hand. Her arms were around his neck, his hands were
on her hips...and the kiss was so passionate that Merlin wasn’t sure that
either of them realized they were still standing in the hallway.
Just as that thought
crossed his mind, Uther gently pushed Morgana through the doorway and closed
the door behind them.
Arthur lowered his
hand from Merlin’s mouth. Merlin said
nothing, but the smile on his face said it all.
There was definitely
hope for Camelot.
~ End